mistakes of my life (so far)

I wish i never had to post anything like this..but, my luck betrayed me and left over with the ugly rejected.
Wish i had spent some time of my life(so far) in meeting people and making friends and creating a social circle of my own that i can spend my life with!
It all began in 9th when i started dreaming and wanted luxury things for myself, a parker pen, branded stuff and all. I thought hard work is the key to success and luxuries of life and i did it...but all hopes shattered when i was unable to make into a good college and felt that was the end to all my dreams and desires. My parents went to a PTU college and paid for my admission in some management quota but i wanted to do BSc honors and enjoy my life in PU as i have been visiting that place frequently as our family has their job and education from that place. Things somehow fell in place and i got admitted in chitkara university. But, in the very first trimester i got real bad grades, made 2 new friends and fell in liking someone. I was pretty bad in my looks (as i am now), a long slim, moustache bearing who was faring too bad in grades and struggled a lot to gain back my marks and almost reached my target.
Then the time came, i became friends with Vandana Gandhi, a popular girl at that time and was related to some Yogesh Kandoria.
There it goes: it was my 2nd year and had got a little momentum in my grades and make fairly good friends.
I was playing with 7 students and 2-3 happened to be my friends were playing with pet bottle filled with water and i mistakenly threw it so high that it broke the window pane of the class room and we all ran. Vandana was caught and was thought to be the one who did this by our officials. But, the later day, one of his friend, Vijay Chaudhary came to me and told me that he had seen me and i would tell the staff that it was you and not her. I did the same and paid the fine. This is how me and Vandana became friends and later she told me to teach her for improvement exams.

the 2 alphabets

it was september 2008, the first year of my college....i had to appear on an interview which was a part of our curriculum.... I was first year of my college and was sitting alone(as usual) but a friend of mine SV called me join her and also introduced me with SK(remember these 2 alphabets). That day i and SK talked for almost 5 hours and i was amazed there were so many things in common between us. It was first of its kind i had ever experienced in my life. The interview went well (not so well actually...because i lacked good communication SKills at that time)...i and SK kept on meeting each other...but i don't know what happened....she left me. I was unaware and started to wait for her..but she didn't came back. I blamed myself for this....maybe i was not so good and i may have failed to qualify as her "friend". From that day, i started to work upon myself and waited for her to look at me (the day she will stare into my eyes would be the day i have become as great as she is). My 2nd year....3rd year..all passed away but she never looked at me...i worked so hard and studied too hard as my friends used to say that she is very good at studies.

now came september 2011(3 years later) again it was an interview day and she wished me luck. Again we talked for 5 hours and were waiting for our placement result. It seemed to me as if that same day came back to me...she was with me...and we were going to be placed together a same company....
i was so happy that night and time passed from 10:30pm to 4:30am so fast that it was hard to believe.

i thanked GOD and never wanted to loose her...
She had a positive instinct that we all will get selected (she said this cutely in punjabi )..that time had everything in it.
rain , her sweet voice (what else i want) :)
finally the results were declared and was shocking...she didn't make it and i did
she started crying and her lips were shaking while she called up her parents to tell that she is not selected.
i wanted to stay there but i had to leave....
again she is gone from my life.
I spent my whole degree waiting for her and i can do nothing rather than thanking her for those 10 most beautiful hours of my life.
thank you SK. i will miss you.
You will stay my no. 1 forever.